General Update // Learning to Love Myself

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Hello hello,
The past few weeks I've been thinking long and hard about my diet plans, workout schedules and my general organisation when it comes to nutrition and basic planning. My gym is closed for 10 days as of the 3rd October, so instead of flapping about stressing about the situation I think I'm going to take the time to really relax and set some new goals and change up my workouts.

For a long time I have been afraid of stepping away from the cardio machines and focus on just lifting weights. I'm basically confessing to being a 'Cardio Bunny' yes, yes I am one. I just love cardio, I can't step away from it, it's been a big part of my process to help me lose weight and I think I just can't leave it behind. But I'm not seeing results anymore, yes I'm happy with my weight but general toning, I'm just not seeing it, this really has left me feeling very unsatisfied with the gym and to be realllllly honest, I keep finding excuses at the end of a working day to get down the gym. I don't know, I guess changing gyms and late finishes at work don't help with motivation but when you don't see results it really does have an impact.

I think just in general, I need to really re-evaluate a lot of my habits from diet, nutrition to self love. The past few weeks have been extremely pressurised at work and it's affected me a lot more than I thought. I under estimated the affects of stress and my body and the time I take to look after myself. This is definitely something I need work on. I just feel like I watch everybody and wonder when they have the time to do things, and upon reflection - it's me. I don't give myself the time. I don't sit down in the evenings and really relax. Working, going to the gym and jumping from home to home (my boyfriends and my own) is really starting to catch up with me. I feel exhausted, stressed, anxious, worried and like time is constantly running away with me. So I'm making the executive decision to stop. Just stop, and I feel like the gym being close for 10 days is a good incentive to start to plan, organise and learn. Learn to love myself, love about nutrition, learn about resting, learn about fitness, learn to relax.

I don't feel like I know enough about taking care of myself, or just relaxing in general. The past 2 years have been go go go for me. Finishing uni, finding a career, living away from home, new jobs. It's quite overwhelming and all positive progressive things, but I haven't ever really sat down and reflected on what I have done and figure out what I need to do to grow.

I want this blog to be a reflection of what I feel is a healthy, realistic lifestyle. I'm a 23 year old juggling a full time job, a busy (but super fun) social life, maintain a steady gym routine and trying to develop my love of all things fitness and nutrition into a career. I just feel like I'm ready to take the next step in my life towards building a fitness career, but I don't feel like I've planned enough about it for me to be successful.

At the end of this waffling post, what I'm really trying to say is..I'm going to take some time to learn to love myself and set realistic, achievable, goals that get me step by step to where I really want to be. This I feel is the most important thing in life, because without self love how can I tell people to love themselves?

See you soon,

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